I felt a little overwhelmed the other day when I had three people — three — of totally unrelated groups! — ask me what I wanted to do for the rest of my life.
Answering this question comes in stages:
1. I know exactly what I want to do, and it all totally makes sense, considering my university studies!
2. Wait… I also want to include this other area of my life that I find extremely relevant.
3. This might also be an option.
4. TOTAL PANIC
Don’t let this be you.
Truth is, I know all of the things I want to do, but therein lies the problem: I have too many things. I haven’t graduated college yet, and I want to know five languages other than the two I already know.
I want to be a music journalist. I want to be a music therapist. I want to teach Spanish kids English. I want to teach English in Spain. I want to teach Spanish to college students. I want to study translations of Lorca. I want to be a UN translator. I want to do hair. I want to be a poet.
All of these are reasonable things within my capabilities, but as I consider each, I think of the time and effort involved in achieving these goals. For most of them, I have to go to grad school, which not only requires thousands more dollars than I will ever have, but also massive amounts of research, time, sleepless nights, and the dreaded GRE… I haven’t taken a math class in years! I don’t even remember what science is.
As for the others… I’m pretty decided on being a music journalist. I try to exercise my writing daily by writing blogs and reviews of songs. But internships are incredibly competitive, and you have to stand out. In a crowd, I’m the loudest one. On paper? At a concert? Naw. Not me.
While the possibilities amass in front of my face, the best advice I can give you — and myself — is just to explore. Explore what you love, examine yourself and your values, take a good luck at what you’re willing to do for something you want. If you aren’t willing to do the mostest for something, is it worth it?
While I try to balance these things, I’m going to lie in bed with Red Hot Chili Peppers serenading me and a pumpkin spice candle in the background. My room smells and feels like fall… I can’t wait to take photos of leaves.